5 am???? Seriously 5 am! My body clock has to be kidding me!
It wasn’t even a turn over and go back to sleep awakening. No, it was a get up and get stuff done alarm and the worst part was my brain agreed with my body. They were. for once, in sync at 5 am.
5 am on a Sunday!!!!!
Nothing for it but to get up, have a shower and find something to do quietly. I pulled out my to do list and by 7 am, I had started to build a new blog site, answered 13 emails, sorted and composed 10 Twitter templates and washed the dishes! I think I had breakfast to! Next walk time, 45 minutes thinks I, in the chilly sunshine. An hour and a half later, I am back at my flat!
Have I been bewitched?
Was there something in the gin I had yesterday?
Or is this a rebellion by my inner, ahem, athlete?
When we have that sudden sleep disturbance it knocks us for six, but for me when I wake up that early at the weekend with no alarm, no what did I forget to do, no can I smell smoke type fears, it feels really really odd. Isn’t it weird how we can’t accept that we are awake and ready to start the day. Instead we either try desperately to go back to the land of nod or spend the next two hours feeling our arms go numb as we check our phones, emails and messages. My theory is, that this is another part of the change I am going through. Hopefully it is having more energy so I might not need as much sleep as I used to. Whatever it is, guess I better get used to it.
Accept! Cope! Change! Challenge! Next week is going to be awesome!
Today was about learning and finding the joy of the moment.
When you are making any kind of change in your life, I think it is important to understand the whys and wherefores. For me, this helps me to plan the way forward knowing that I have the knowledge and back up to cope. This can be anything from a technical skill to having people in my life who can give me solid advice. But it also means finding inspiration whether from literature, places or people.
I was privileged to attend the 2017 Stone Lecture at Glasgow University tonight. It was given by Sally Magnusson the writer and broadcaster, and more recently the founder of Playlist for Life. This is an amazing charity who do fantastic work with those who have dementia and their families. They use music as therapy to help communication and as a way for families to help cope with the difficult times.
The key messsge for me was when Sally described the importance of finding “the joy of the moment”. So often with dementia it is the small glimpses that keep families in touch with their loved one, and I guess it is the same for all of us.
When times get tough, think of that small piece of joy and focus on the feeling it gave. It really helps when you need to cope with the challenge that change brings.
To find out more about Playlist For Life, click the link below
PlayList For Life
I have to admit that this morning I am shattered. A very busy and challenging week caught up with me and I had to cancel a few things today. I deliberately had a slow morning with a little bit longer in my meditation time. My walk took me round the Botanic Gardens minus my FitBit. The crocus and snowdrops are peeping up everywhere, it is so nice to see that wee bit of colour.
I admit to a nap when I got back and then dealt with all the stuff I had been avoiding on my TO DO list.
Determination to get the job done!
Sunday is going to be a challenging day as I have a lot to do plus fit in my walk. Think I need another nap
Up with the very sleepy lark this morning, places to go and people to see. I did treat myself to breakfast at my favourite coffee shop, Gordon Street Coffee. Their Glasgow Roast is just the fuel to get you going. I love sitting in here, especially this morning as the coffee bean roaster was on.
Job done in the City Centre then in for my next coffee at Western Health and Racquets Club’s Members Bar.
With all this caffeine time to channel into a workout and boy did I push myself.
Check the Day 27 post on my Facebook page
Tomorrow, more coffee powered activity and if nothing gets in the way, a workout with GymGuyMark
Well Day 26 was windy, cold and wet! It was one of those days where you just want to stay in bed and do nothing but watch crap TV. Unfortunately I had a list as long as my aching legs so no lazing around!!!! I didn’t even have time for a gym session so instead I walked it from the West End into Glasgow City Centre, in the rain.
Check my short video here, although I do get the name of the movie wrong
Tuesday night is movie night and tonight was the RSC latest production of The Tempest. It is such a strange play but the effects in this production make it rather special. Such a weird experience watching theatre in the cinema, it is great that you can get access to productions that would normally be too far away or too expensive.
RSC The Tempest
Today was a day full of more preparation and planning, a touch of networking and watching Prospero. I am beginning to factor the balancing of all the elements I wanted to be able to cope with into my day. The key is going to be that when I get back to work that this balance remains. So far it seems to be working but the proof will be in the Optimistic pudding.
Sunday, the day of rest! I wish!
For some foolish reason I decided to get up early and instead of my usual long lie with many mugs of coffee and a good book, I found myself in my gym clothes and out walking. It was not the warmest of mornings but AC/DC in my headphones were working a treat. Now this would not be too bad if my brain had not then decided that I felt good enough to head to the Gym! Optimism on the part of my psyche, methinks????
Well, 2 lots of ten minutes on the treadmill, 20 on the bike then my 10 minute rowing challenge and my psyche was no longer optimistic. Jelly legs and wimpy arms were struggling to even get me back to the Changing Room but after at least two pints of water and a breather, things got better.
See my Facebook page for today’s short video
My ten minute rowing challenge results, today on the left
It was then onto Social Media duty as two of the Junior Tennis groups at the Western Health and Racquets Club were taking part in workshops with Jeff, agreat sports psychologist. He got the guys to think about how negative thoughts affect their tennis game and their lives in general. Sitting listening to the enthusiasm of the groups was inspiring and I have to say it made me think about a lot of negative thinking that I do. The groups had some great ideas and their feedback at the end was encouraging.
Today was definitely inspiring and full of thinking. As we go into Week 5, I can honestly say there is a difference. The physical signs will come but the mental strength is already there.
Look out Week 5!
Wonderful video produced by the team I work with!
When you read all the health advice for someone of my age, it is all cut down on stress, watch what you eat, don’t drink to excess and exercise. I realised the other day that in 2015 I revolted against most of this. I think I saw the inside of the gym only a handful of times, healthy eating; eh no, and stress, well lets just say at times it was off the radar. So I guess that makes me a lifestyle revolutionary, waving the flag for all the wrong reasons but if you were to questions my principles, I can give you a damn good excuse for each and every time!
I wonder if this revolutionary spirit in me is a mid life crisis! It is like the driver who knows it should be the sensible Ford but that sporty little roadster yells Vive La Revolution! If it is not the old oh my God I am in my fifties crisis, is it just sheer laziness? Was it that in 2015 I could just not be bothered and my hormones, agreeing with this theory, shut down and let me do whatever the hell I wanted. Or perhaps it was because I realised that there were other things in my life that needed a barrier built in order for me to be able to cope, and that when the time comes for it to fall all these other non revolutionary ideas will come into play. In 2015 I had to cope with making huge changes in my life, they were long overdue and ranged from professional to personal to financial. Change can be exhausting, emotionally and mentally so perhaps the physical side of things had to put on the back burner till my head had cleared and I could see my revolutionary vision clearly.
So 2016? Do I wave the flag high and continue of my policies of eating chocolate and hitting the gin bottle to revolutionary excess? Well perhaps my principles need to be refined? A little bit of give and take maybe in order with a continuance of Vive La Revolution but with much more “protesting” in the fresh air, lifting weights and getting the Gin or Gym balance right. It takes great strength in your arms to fly a flag high, so once the steak pie, peas and tatties are all done on New Years Day, the 2016 revolution continues. None of this New Year new start thing, that is total BS and never works, as I said I started revolting in 2015 and I plan to continue in 2016 with slight changes to the propaganda!
Just one further issue to resolve, what is the well dressed revolting 50 year old wearing these days?
Happy New Year all
This morning I wake up in a different world! Over a week ago I was in the busy, frantic office of investment banking and today I enter the world of the “creative visionaries and digital design specialists” at 29studios
My challenges? To manage the office, to learn what they do, reacquaint myself with a MacBook and embrace a brand new culture and way of working. All of which I am so looking forward to!
When you make any change to your life you cause a whole heap of ripples in the pond. It often does not just affect you, those around you have to embrace it as well. Whether it is the fact that you keep grinning like an idiot because you have got your dream job or that your hours change and adjustments need to be made, the effect is felt by others. I didn’t realise the effect my making a change would have on others who read my Blog or follow my Gin or Gym Facebook page A few have asked why I made this change and as I said previously, some of the reasons are personal and not for publication (none related to my previous employer) but if I am honest there are some main ones …
- A friend said to me one day that if she could she would employ me because of the skills I had. I asked her what they were and she listed off abilities I never even thought of.
- I have so many great influences in my life, friends who stand up for their political beliefs, family members who are battling cancer, and others who are so true to what they want to do, they set up their own companies
- I know a few young people who set themselves a goal and reached for it under tremendous pressure
I looked at all these influences and thought what can I take from each of these and move forward, cause the pond to ripple and see whether I can swim. Well today I am diving in at 9am on my first day, not in a new job but in a new chapter with the #29ERs, I have met the team and spent time in the office and cannot wait to get started.
So it maybe a new chapter with a new haircut and a new MacBook but this is the real me and #IlovewhatIamdoing
The one problem with making any big change is doubt, that silly little niggle that starts at the back of your head and will not go away. Small things can very quickly escalate into huge fears and worries and the spiral into heightened anxiety can shift up a gear and speed towards the danger zone.
How do you stop that from happening?
- Self belief, remember where the courage came from to make that decision and why!
- Focus on you, on your reasons good or bad and use them to point you in the right direction.
- Talk to those you trust, family and friends who really know you and can be honest with you.The number of friends and colleagues who noticed a difference in me was phenomenal.
- I ditched the pros and cons and instead used mind mapping and a few other methods to point me in the right direction. I found pro and cons lists too negative.
- Make up an alternative CV, list your life skills and use your hobbies etc to pinpoint what you enjoy. This really helped me to focus on a few things I had forgotten about.
Very simple but useful little steps!
One other thing, be grateful for where you are leaving, bitterness can sour the process of finding something new. Even if you are leaving for negative reasons, there will be learning points you can take away with you. Everything we go through in life teaches us and becomes an experience, good or bad.
So I finally said goodbye to colleagues and friends I had worked with for over 12 years, it was tough. I think I cried my way through most of my last day. It was a day full of affirmations and memories and may tissues. I leave with some very nice gifts as well as a cracking wee night out.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me at Morgan Stanley for the last 12 years, it has been a blast.