Thinking back to yesterday’s Blog, I was reminded of this quote from Peter Pan. “Sometimes the things that you’re looking for, you can’t see with your eyes. You have to see them with your heart.”
If that’s the case, can “the heart” see through the carefully placed camera of the Zoom call? Can it survive the “new normal” that will exist after lockdown is over? Or will, as one of my friends said after reading yesterday’s Blog, “life always be 2 metres apart?” I guess it is up to us to decide if we want to listen to our heart or stick with logic to preserve our lockdown sanity especially if “I have far too much to deal with, I don’t have time to restart old relationships when my freezer needs defrosting and the garden needs weeding”.
At the end of the day, if we stop being cynical for a moment and allow ourselves a bit of a romantic thought, (no, I haven’t been drinking) I guess this time of challenge is making everything seem possible. It feels like we are back to the old “dial up” days where you sat in front of a dodgy old PC waiting for that connection sound, till MSN messenger popped up and revealed who was online. Do you message first or wait in hope that he messages you??? What emoticon do you use? How flirty can you be? So many questions that made your brain, heart and emotions fly until someone used the landline and cut off your connection.
The poet E.E Cummings once said “We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit”. A year ago the old cynical me would have sniggered at this but the one thing that a few personal challenges have taught me is that life is too f***ing short! Yes, use logic and be sensible but as someone said to me “that butterfly feeling of potential is too good not to experience”.
So perhaps this challenging time we find ourselves in is full of potential rather than negatives. Yes, don’t be daft and let that creep that dumped you back into your life because if you do, you may miss the “potential” of real “butterflies”. Ask yourself can I cope with this or should I just go defrost the freezer?
Stay safe, stay healthy, stay home!